January 2012
7 posts
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I came home from a shit day to find my littlest sister had put my clean tshirts in my room for me, folded the way I like them (yes, I am that fussy) and when my dad left to go round to margaret’s she came downstairs, dumped her pad and pens in the living room, went to the kitchen and came back with wine for me (and something weirdly purple for herself) and then sat down beside me and said...
December 2011
3 posts
Having a job...
PROS: I earn money so I can buy shiny things and food.
I’m meeting new people, some of whom are pretty cool.
I feel less useless on a daily basis.
CONS: My line manager and my overall boss are completely obnoxious.
I am constantly having to grit my teeth, smile and be polite to some of the rudest fuckers I’ve ever come across.
November 2011
4 posts
October 2011
8 posts
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EMO ALERT
Today is a bust. My whole head hurts from crying so much. I can’t even.
Mostly of late I have had a handle of sorts on my mental state. Things in general haven’t been brilliant, but mostly ok. And then there was today. If going to the shrink is supposed to make you better then my shrink is broke and I want a new one.
I’m not ready to deal with the whys and hows of my having...
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In the midst of a fairly random discussion re: favourite disney characters, Louise announces she thinks I would either be Merlin or Toulouse from aristocats. Not sure how I feel about the cat but I’m pretty sure I could pull off Merlin with some aplomb, I also own a wand and some jazzy pink pants.
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I cannot even pretend to be remotely objective about racism. It is disgusting.
If you cut another human being, barring some serious medical disorder, their blood will flow as freely and as red as yours would (please don’t do that, you will go to jail).
If a black/asian/polka dot person’s loved one dies, they feel the hurt exactly as you would feel the hurt of losing someone dear to...
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No NBA = :(
It really infuriates me to no end that the NBA is at a complete standstill over money. Yes, the green stuff makes the world go round but the owners of basketball in the USA need to stop throwing this pathetic mass tantrum and just agree to the next deal. Most of them have more personal fortune than an average person could ever spend in a regular kind of lifetime, even with a swish car and posh...
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September 2011
3 posts
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Currently
Listening to Horrible Crowes album ‘Elsie’ wishing Brian Fallon’s voice was an edible kinda sum’in sum’in and I had a spoon. I usually hate this word but it really is Amazeballs.
August 2011
4 posts
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The last few weeks have been mostly awesome with a slight infusion of weirdness and randomosity for good measure.
I am still having some trouble digesting the idea that I guy I admired from afar for almost 4 years asked me out. I actually had to fight with myself to control the urge to ask if he was blind or not. And I’m kinda glad I did because we had a very lovely, proper grown up first...
July 2011
8 posts
FINALLY...
Books I have finally finished (that I’ve either been meaning to read or have been reading for a loooong time):
Jude the Obscure (didn’t like it much, seemed a bit depressing and grey)
Last of The Mohicans (inexplicably loved it)
New Human Revolution vols. 1-4 (is like reading blank cardboard. makes me want to pull my face off, buddhist or not)
The Fry Chronicles (pf course I loved...
I feel so bummed out and insignificant today it’s not even funny. I need to just leave and start somewhere new.
I think it's time for me and you to take over the...
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Midnight Rage
The idiot boy who lives next door and his stupid little cronies have nearly given me a heart attack.
I could hear people outside (not having a clue who it was) being a bit lairy and could hear a door rattling exactly the way our patio doors do when they get stuck. Upon summoning the courage to go downstairs and investigate (after deciding my guitar would make a fine weapon) I realised it had been...
“Those who are born immortal instinctively know how to cope with it, but...”
– Douglas Adams - Life, The Universe And Everything
So, recently, I did the following things for the first time:
Had a spray tan (surprisingly, I didn’t go orange. I would recommend it)
Ate a black olive by accident and didn’t spit it out or pull a childish face
Actually confronted a lot of the current issues in my family head on (ones that affect me, I wasn’t meddling or being nosey)
Managed to sunbathe for more than 2 hours...
June 2011
20 posts
Religion
It’s personal right? Different strokes for different folks and all that. I’ve been a practising buddhist for nearly 4 years now and only a few people know that, I don’t lead with “Hi, I’m a buddhist, you should be too ‘cause I’m obviously right about this whole jesus thing being rubbish” everytime I meet someone new.
I resent that today, whilst...
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I am getting my first ever spray tan next friday. I’ve never even been tempted to use fake tan myself because I have gone to school/university/shared the same the airspace with too many bright orange people for me to think it would be a good idea.
But now my cousin runs a salon, my sister is training to be a beautician and I am (literally) a blank canvas. Of sorts. I get the feeling...
“Your blood was mixed with wine and robbery baby, and left us always wanting...”
– Gaslight Anthem - Old Haunts
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Currently
I am reading (half heartedly I must admit), internet-ing, listening to Blondie (and singing along) and drinking juice whilst sitting in a fairly precarious manner at the end of my bed.
And they tell me I can’t multi-task. Hah.
The only worse thing than having your own heart broken is knowing someone you love is going to have their heart broken and there is bugger all you can do about it.
Um.
I’ve spent the evening filling in a job application and was a bit stumped by the request to ”List your hobbies and interests”. It shows with a clear example that they just want a list of what you like/are interested in. So mine would look like this:
Basketball
Motorbikes
Genetics
Poetry
Live Music
Hillwalking
Guitar playing, tattooed men
Singing really badly/loudly when...
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I have spent most of today trying to sleep and chewing painkillers, interspersed with bouts of excitement at the Mavs whooping the Heat later and laughing with Tina at Rebecca’s hungover attempts at coherent speech (none of which were very successful).
I feel I should have done something slightly more productive. But now it’s 8pm and all I want to do is sit down and drink gallons of...